Keeping your word…

Posted: February 7, 2012 in Uncategorized
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Yes. I forgot to write a 2nd blog for the week. Which of course I had promised to do in one of my previous blogs AND which was part of my original criteria. Hence the title “Keeping your word”.

I have been able to do this really well over the past few months BUT keeping my word about blogging has been really difficult. I’m going to blame it on the fact that we have had two long weekends so I think it’s Sunday when really it’s Monday! Anyway. Now I have really made things harder for me as now I have to commit to blogging THREE times a week.

It’s not so much the forgetting either. Some of it has to do with the fact I don’t really have much to write about. When things are progressing and going well…or better than before, I never feel the need to blog. And I never intended for this blog to turn into a chore or something that I didn’t find therapeutic. As soon as things turn into a chore I’ll start switching off. I really hope this forgetting doesn’t continue, cause I don’t think I’ll be able to blog FOUR times a week!!! Ever!

So, Keeping your word. Or more keeping MY word. In most cases I have been able to keep this going. This lines up to my post about integrity. Being honest and truthful all the time. That’s only a small part of it. Read the post if you have forgotten. I have been challenged many times, not just by people around me but also by me personally. I am constantly reminding myself not to basically say something that I never intend to follow through on. If I can’t keep my word then I have to tell the truth and/or shut my mouth. This has actually helped me listen more to others. It’s easy when the people you spend most of your time with are part of your tribe too.

For most parts of mine and A’s relationship I kept my word. Whatever I said to her I meant it. I still think about the words I said to her when I found out what she had done. I meant every word. I keep thinking about whether I regret saying what I said. I find it difficult to say ‘yes’. I think about how I may have changed how I said it too. Again I honestly don’t think I would’ve changed that either. I meant every word. I wanted her to feel and understand how much pain I was feeling. I wanted her to feel that pain. Little did I know (or believe) that she had been feeling more pain than that for a long time.

My word is sometimes all I have. It’s something that we all have. People will judge us by it too. People will get use to you ‘changing’ or ‘backing out’ of things you have said. I have met many people like this. Trust and honesty are hard to come by. People are naturally selfish and always have their own bias. I will always tell people the truth so that they will respect my word. So that they will honor my opinion. So that they will come to me and talk…and listen.

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